Tomorrow already?

Yes. Yes. Yes. I can't hide it.

I haven't posted for more than a week and I am the worst. lol

I don't have time... if I did have time I was really tired.

For the past days a bunch of things happened.

Classes are over.

Meeting.

Got sick for 4 days.

Christmas Parties.

Rest.

Ooh, I've summarized everything.

I am in a vacation mode for the past days so I am not doing anything productive. 

I will start working after Christmas.

Tomorrow?

No, not tomorrow. Tomorrow's my special day and no one can ever disrupt me from being happy.

I need to gather seiyuu greetings from Twitter again. 

Ganbarimasu!

This week few anime series will come to an end and SAO started the trend.

Kamisama Hajimemashita, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun, and Hiiro no Kakera are the next ones.

I am looking forward to Chihayafuru's Season 2 and Amnesia. 

Closing the post now! 

A day. Two days.

I don't know what to do now. We're still waiting for our professor in English. We were dismissed early in our prior subject, Filipino. We are regretting the fact that we left the arcade house at exactly 5:30 pm.

I can hear noise. Noises everywhere though I am listening to music with my earphones on. I am trying to picture the things I will do once I got home. Should I review for tomorrow's quizzes in programming or not? I don't know if our professor will be around because she's usually unwell these days. If I did study but the quizzes were cut, what'll happen to my effort? Aaaah~ the song I am listening to at the moment bleds well with what I am feeling now: Complication -- Rookiez is Punk'd.

I want to have a long... a very long post tonight because I wasn't able to have an entry yesterday. Should I talk about the events yesterday?

It was actually a pretty boring day. Usual. I woke up kinda late because I was seriously lazy to get out from bed. When I arrived at school, the professor wasn't there (room/lab) yet. Showed my downloaded DTX Mania software to my friends, then our prof appeared. We tackled the same lesson again. We're asked to program something, though nobody was able to make the proper coding. Almost got it, but, nah, almost is not enough. We didn't have prof in Math. It's Education Week after all. They, our professors in Math and PE, were involved in that occasion, that means my classmates got free earlier than scheduled. I had my duty in the registrar's office that's why I left my friends to work. What was asked me to do? Simple. I only cut the examination permits. I was even asked if I prefer to use the cutter but I took the scissors instead. Such an addicting task. I even wanted to ask the one who was supervising me to let me take home one ream of it to finish cutting all of them but I am not that thick-faced to even say that in front of sir. lol

Dismissal came, I went to the computer shop to  join my friends. They were playing Counter Strike. I don't have any idea how to play that so I refused to play with them. OF COURSE I WON'T SURVIVE WITHOUT PLAYING. I again hit the Drummania and gave my best to it.

Take note: I played Drummania during our supposed-to-be Math time and after my duty. I even got an S! LOL such a child for being happy.

GOT HOME. ONLINED. FELL ASLEEP. WHUTTHE.

So, should I tell what happened today?  Will probably do so.

Woke up at 9:30 am (though I planned to rise at around 4:30 am). Dang dang dang. I got hypnotized by my laziness that I extended my sleep. I had my breakfast while polishing my essay. Right after that, I watched the update of Sword Art Online, because I promised myself not to watch SAO's new episode until I finished my essay in English. Watched Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun's latest episode too then had our visual aids in Filipino. Did my routine.

Then, then, then, I texted my friends if they can bring newspapers and scotch tapes for our report in Filipino. We weren't able to obtain any. I bought medicines this afternoon too, my friends accompanied me. 

Filipino time. We transferred room. We went to the second floor because it was really noisy outside the building because Education Week at the same time Intramurals were occurring. We were surprised that instead of having our reports, we were asked to bring out sample of texts that have different classifications. FTW, I brought an English Writing Book and that saved me. I got few examples from that book. So happy I got saved. lololol. Then we were dismissed early (as what have been said above).

Break time. 

Ate with my friends. I can't resist to play so I burst playing again. lol I didn't get any scratch nor wound from the drum playing. My left hand is filled with band-aids so that may be the reason why it was free from any harm. I even pretended that I am the female version of Midorima because of my band-aids and my eyeglasses. They even told me that my lucky item was coffee. LOL WHATTHE? 

Ughhh...?

I feel so useless today. All my plans were ruined because of my addiction.

So, I woke up last night (refer to my previous post) to have my dinner and even study for a bit... but I then did download a software that can let me see autoplays of the songs in drummania. I also watched the past few episodes of Hiiro no Kakera Dai Ni Shou that I missed. I did those for almost 4 hours.

I AM SO TAKUMA-BIASED. \\(^w^)//

The way Sugita Tomokazu say those words. Kyaahhhaaan~

I decided to start my essay in English since I will surely be busy the upcoming days. I ended up staring at the title for few minutes. I read few articles regarding that topic so I may get few hints to how I will start and finish my work, but I failed. I didn't even manage to finish the first sentence. *facepalms*

I fell asleep after downloading various songs for the emulator. So happy but at the back of my mind I feel so pissed about myself. How can I ruin such perfect time frame for this day? I DID STUDY? What subject? Drummania autoplays, how to play the songs. Ridiculous me.

That's what I did for most part of my day. If there were any errands I did, they were only done in few minutes.

I just started moving at 4:30 pm. I printed my assignment in Psychology and a pattern for my NSTP assignment which will be submitted tomorrow. I feel so irresponsible. Rushing that important task. X___X

Watched Sukitte ii na yo's latest episode with my sister too. 

(I can't understand how Yamato can freely do that with Mei knowing the fact that they are still in SCHOOL!!)

To tell you the truth, I just finished painting it few minutes ago... now I am in a middle of worrying what my essay contents will be... and whether if I should study math or programming after. Gaaah. I am seriously regretting what I did.

Report ended. What a wasted day. 

Fulfillment X Disappointment

I fell asleep. Few more minutes before 12 mn.

If there will be typos in this post it is because I rushed this one.

SOOOOO...

I woke up early. About 4:45 am just to review in Psychology and read a bit in Biology. I only went downstairs at 6:00 and did my routine.

Hasted to school, saw some of my classmates photocopying the assignment and reached my room at 7:10 am. 

We had a quiz in Psychology. It was a 35 item quiz divided to sub-tests. The first part was what exactly was given to us last meeting, the situations that will then be categorized to what branch of psychology is concerned. The next part is a True or False part where I got one mistake. lol The third one is an enumeration (different types of behavior) then we'll give example for each. The last one is identifying a certain method in Psychological analysis if it is ancient, pre-modern, or modern. Up to my surprise, I got 34/35. Yey. Thank You Lord! Submitted the photos we were asked to bring. Wrote "What I like about myself" at the back of the photo. I answered "I like my smile because it lightens up my mood..." Too much explanation, but really, every time I smile it soothes a bad situation I am facing. 

After that, we had our short break. I ate rice. I can't possibly last the day without eating heavy course meal.

Returned to the classroom. While waiting for our professor, I roamed around to complete the directory our Filipino teacher asked me to do. Then, when I saw my classmate who is a "drunkard", I immediately confessed to him that he got me annoyed . He then said sorry, told him, "It's easy to say sorry, but it is hard to forgive."

Biology classes started...

We had a quiz. "Prepare a 1/16 yellow paper..."

Yes, we had a quiz in that small paper. 15 items all in all. We were a bit surprise that there were few items that weren't discussed last meeting that were not even included in our syllabus... yah, yah.

While checking our own paper, I misspelled intussusception. What mistake did I do? I simply spelled it as "into..." because our professor is from a Visayan part of the country, I got confused. lol (but at least I know how to spell it properly now) The next mistake I did is in number 3 item, "What do you call the blah blah of the plant to determine its age...?" I answered "its rings/plant rings" to play safe but, I guess it was too safe because it should be "annual rings or growth rings". Why did I forget that term. *facepalms* Then in the number 13th item (was it 12? lol) The question was "Is plant growth limited??" (I rephrased it but the thought is still the same) I automatically answered "Yes". Of course, death of the plant alone is the biggest hint that it is very limited. Up to our surprise, our professor stated it should be "No". WHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAT??? O___O Totally got out of my mind at the moment there. Good thing our VP/friend/classmate raised his hand and justified that it should be a "Yes" and stated bamboos for example. I also raised my hand and asked if the plant reached withering, will it not be considered as a stage that it will eventually be limited. Another one raised his hand and defended the answer "No". I then instantly took my book out of my bag and flipped the pages of my book, there a bright light appeared and saw the answer. Few more explanations from my professor and she told us that the answer must be "Yes". AT LAST. In the end, I was a bit disappointed with my grade... 11/15. Not my usual score. But at least, 2nd to the highest. I should've gotten 13 if only I spelled correctly and remember that scumbag term.

Another discussion happened. The expected lesson will be about Scientific Method but we ended up with writing research papers. O___O I can't blame ma'am. She told us that she'll give us more informative than what was in the book about scientific method since it is very elementarish... or maybe high schoolish. Immediately after that, we were asked to bring out 1/2 lengthwise and there, we had our 2nd quiz. BOOM BABY.

A classmate of mind approach our prof for reference. Good thing I was the one asked to photocopy the lesson for the next meeting since we'll have yet another quiz. Phew. Never ending but it is to test us. 

I photocopied the chapter 1 of the book. Returned the book to my professor and asked her if it will be our reference book all throughout the semester (because it is really hard to study biology with many books beside me, not knowing which I should master). I guess, I should just insert all the info I can get to that book so I can get high grade.

Decided to go to the library next. We went to the main building but the book we were looking for wasn't there. Maybe other students borrowed it already. *sobs* 

Headed to South again (it is a grocery store with arcade center and food court lol), I saw my former classmates in ValSci at the entrance. Yey! I ate rice again, yeah, so hungry after all those quizzes. After that, we encountered a man who kept on playing the Drummania there, we only got small chance of playing... as expected from a Saturday, many people are there. We then played Tekken. I had only one round of game because I was talking to my classmate while playing, I lost a beat and failed the stage. THEEENNNN, we played a gun-shooting game. Guess that wore me out that's why when I went home, I was so tired. 

I tried talking to my "drunkard" classmate and even begged him to quit his plan in the Christmas Party. As the class representative, that should be my obligation. They are of my care. I can't bear seeing our section fall to pieces because of that event. I dunno how I am going to face him on Monday. I really got disappointed. He kept on insisting how much he would want to have a "drinking session" in that day. Can't you even resist your st00pid temptation for a day? Oh Gawrsh, I really raged in my mind, I don't want to turn them to words. I don't want to hurt others but at least I let him know what I was feeling. GAAWRR so annoying. Day-ruiner. IMAGINE, I WAS WATCHING A DOCUMENTARY ABOUT NARCISSISM WHILE HAVING THAT CONVERSATION. I don't know if I should have let it pass, but I am scared. I can't look forward to the Christmas Party because I am freakin' scared now. I don't want my emotions to prevail that's why I just slept.

AAAAAHHHHH. If I continue to rant with this mood on, I don't know if you'll even read this. But , seriously, I am so angry. I am very angry. I don't want this to be the cause of my death, so I will just study. 

Itekimasu. 

Drum mania

GAAAH. So addicted to Drum mania (though I am so outdated)

Today is a half-bad and half-good day. 

Woke up late... 30 minutes before my first class started. Good thing I moved fast. My prof was a bit late too. 

Da-da-da-da. I was not totally paying attention to our lesson because I was a bit sleepy. About 70% of my real world's soul was present. The rest left me. 

Let them have their break time after the class. Then had our our NSTP period as our homeroom. I asked them to fill out the forms I printed yesterday for their community service. There were few blank spots because about 3 or 4 classmates of mine were absent. They enjoyed the day without work due to the out-campus activity of the NSTP office. 

I explained the instructions for our sort-of seatwork... but ended up being taken home because of me. I know they will not enjoy making it if they don't finish it at home. 

Discussed about our Christmas Party plans. I don't really want to tell here what we've planned, just I became extremely pissed. It's inevitable. It's very apparent.

Terminated the day's class.

With my friends, we went to a photocopying outlet then to a computer shop. Since the number of free slots weren't enough, some of us decided to stay outside. The ladies (including me...? OHMYEFFIN' I AM A LADY? wwwww), went to the nearest grocery store then we've canvassed the ingredients we'll be using for the food in the Christmas Party. 

After that, we played non-stop. THE DRUMMANIA/PERCUSSION 9TH MIX of Konami led us to addiction. We encountered various awesome folks who seemed to stay there for years just to master the songs and the beats. lol We still have plenty of practice to make more.

Headed home. Loitered around the room. Had phone conversation. :3

I am so sleepy. I don't want to fuss about the meeting this afternoon. I was really exhausted and annoyed. Don't worry, I am fine now. I am not that thickheaded and immature to ask for that person to grovel just for my forgiveness. lol Just Kidding. 

I will sleep now. But, I will read few notes I've written down so I will be prepared for tomorrow. Sorry for this rushed post. I was expecting that this will be longer, but can't keep up with this ultra sleepiness I am having. 

I still feel so busy. I can't wait for the 2 week vacation we'll be having. I am still hoping for an extension though. -____- I can't possibly memorize 3 or more subject with that small amount of time. 2 maybe. I will keep myself away from the PC if that'll be the case, then of course, I can't. 

Nah, ignore all those above words. I am just out of my mind. 

Oyasumi nasai. 

No image too. What are you doing? >_< 

Smiled.

Aaaah. I remember my last night's rants. I really had a switch of mood because of the words engraved to my mind. I can't help it. I can't prevent my brain from functioning, if I can, why would I?

Sometimes my imaginations fly too far. There pluses and minuses to that. The only thing I can do is to focus more on adding more plus, right?

Report for the day.

So, instead of waking up waaaaay earlier than what I planned, I rose at 9:00 am. At least I didn't wake up at afternoon. I had my breakfast, cheese roll and normal coffee. I watched 2 episodes of Hiiro no Kakera and I was seeing myself in the position of Tamaki because of what I was feeling...

Yes, I wanted to burst crying this morning... but, nah... I hate dramas. So, I continued watching. Did errands, and ate lunch with my aunt.

After lunch, I gulped ultra cold soft drink even though I am coughing. lol I did some of the assigned tasks to me. SUCCESS RATE = 100% So happy. Printed all the things to be printed. 

What are those printed materials?

1.) My sister asked me to print her lectures. (Check)

2.) My aunt asked me to print my cousin name labels (Check)

3.) The assigned fill-out forms for our NSTP. (Check)

4.) My childhood to high school pictures (Check)

I am really blessed to have such lovable printer. THANK YOU PARENTS. 

Rushed to my room again (since I can't make contact with my little cousin. I don't want to let her have my disease). Started doing my notes in Filipino too. I want to answer math problems, do an essay, and polish my notes in Psychology but it seems like I don't have plenty of time left. That's why, I will just push through continuing my Filipino notebook until I fell asleep. I have classes tomorrow too, so... I don't think I am really going to sleep early. I need to be more productive.

My sister forced me to watch Kamisama Hajimemashita's latest episode with her (but already watched it without subtitles). We thought that the subbed version isn't uploaded yet that's why we were both surprised after learning that it has English words below. wwwww Then ate dinner. Talked with my siblings and mom. Continued writing. Talked with my father. We watched CODE:BREAKER's latest episode too. Oh sisterly bonding thru anime is love.

Speaking of my father... he sent us jackets. I got an apple green colored one with a huge logo of Adidas at the upper left part of the jacket. I really don't like flashy designs that's why I chose that one.

Those are the things that happened today. Boring but productive. I feel so happy. I need to continue this pace up. 

Closing screencaps from Tamaki's girly adventure:

9 more school days and 1 day for Christmas Party before I can finally call it vacation. 

I want to be happy. Happy I want. Happier! Happiest!

PS. My hands are still aching. Too much force used yesterday from all those playing. lol At least I enjoyed it. 

Why feel like this?

After my last blog post, I felt sad suddenly. I don't know why. A lot of scenarios appeared in my head. What if I failed meeting expectations? I am at this age but I still can't accept that I can't be perfect. Why is it so hard to be one? 

Even though I always smile, it doesn't mean I won't ever get to feel sadness. 

Why do some people easily get angry about small things? 

Why do some people prefer to stay average?

Why do some people like pinpointing out other people's flaws without looking at themselves first?

How do I overcome my fear of failing?

According to Joseph M. Carver, Ph.D, Psychologist

Depression is a problem with mood/feeling in which the mood is described as sad, feeling down in the dumps, being blue, or feeling low. While the depressed mood is present, evidence is also present which reflects the neurochemical or "brain chemistry" aspects of depression with the depressed individual experiencing poor concentration/attention, loss of energy, accelerated thought/worry, sleep/appetite disturbance, and other physical manifestations. 

It will take me a longer amount of time than usual to recover from this. The last question I've thrown is what consumes me everyday. I am thinking wrongly. I shouldn't be like this. It has been months since I last felt this. How come it returned? Why is my brain and mind betraying me? 

Gawrsh. Feeling sleepy too. Is this another manifestation? I should be productive tonight, tomorrow, and on Friday. I don't want to end up being a trash. I have things to do, I must do. I have expectations to meet. 

I wanna burst this out. I just can't. 

I can't even understand myself at the moment. 

I can't read everyone's mind. I am afraid of learning the truth. I am afraid of not knowing the truth.

Just like in the latest episode of Bakuman.3. "If only one can survive, then you should tell the truth without caring what others might feel." But, what if because you care for yourself too much, you destroyed your name. One cannot live alone that's why he/she must weigh his thoughts before spitting them out. BUT, what if the person wants to please everyone that he became untrue to himself? What if he's well loved but he hates himself? What if he can't choose which route he should go? What if he can have all or nothing? 

I am trying to smile. Listening to upbeat and happy songs but they don't affect me. I don't like becoming like this but I am so stressed. I am so stressed. I wanna scream. I wanna shout. BUT WHO CARES? At least through words I can express myself. It doesn't matter if other people will read this or even comment to this post. 

My problems are very basic. They are very small. 

If I don't experience problems in life then I can't consider myself as a living person, right? I should be happy. I should be. Just give me more time to picture things in my head for a while. I will be in a deep thinking. I don't want to be bothered by trashes first. I will get serious for the upcoming days. It's hard. It's really hard. It is very painful. 

At last, Wednesday

Of course I reviewed in Accounting. Before closing my eyes, I listened to Wasurenagusa Vol 04. Hiro Shimono's just kakkoii there. 

Managed to sleep at 2:30 am.

Woke up at 6:05, 55 minutes before my first subject starts. Did my routine. Headed straight to school.

Then, waited for our professors while most of us were still reviewing for Accounting. Students are still students. We need to strive for best, right? My cough loved me this morning that's why it bugged me again. I had to wear the handy-dandy mask that I placed in my bag. Became a good kid, took my medicine on time so I was well-esteemed towards my health. 

Then around 7:35 our professor arrived. CAN YOU EVEN FOCUS LISTENING TO THE LESSON WHILE YOU ARE COUGHING SO HARD AND YOUR HEAD IS FILLED WITH ACCOUNTING TERMS? This is why I don't want having a discussion prior to a long quiz. But, we can't do anything regarding that. All we have to do is to nod to our schedule. 

Recess came. We were all still studying. Busy-bodies. I just had instant noodles since I, also, can't afford to waste even a precious second for me to review. A very good friend of ours brought sliced oranges. A friend said that, "Oh! This one's the same with the food Kuroko and his teammates had during a game." I corrected him, thus said, "They had whole lemons soaked in honey. Do you want to have that?" LOL Pleasing to have close comrades who also have interest in anime. 

While waiting for our professor, had coffee time. Listened to anime songs, still reading. The longer the waiting time, the more nervous we became. Of course, we spent tons of time for memorizing a huge amount of terms, we don't want to forget any. 

Had a petty fight with a classmate. It made me realize something. I think various unreachable things that make me look weird to him. AAAAAND I DON'T CARE. I personally consider that by thinking deeper about things, it can stimulate your brain. If I don't like that, I will be a commoner. Who wants to be a commoner? According to our Psychology professor, "The new trend now is not be common. It's for you to be unique, to be extraordinary." 

Rejected his presence because the flow of the conversation just narrowed my mind. I wrote all the things I've reviewed in a piece of paper... professor appeared. 

Heart pounded so fast. So fast that even though our professor is still at the door, I wanted to hear the first question already. I held my rosary so tight. 

Actually, during that time, I was pissed because I think my former self is returning. I don't want that to happen. I was very cruel before. BUT, I can't help but act like that again. Why? Because not all people can't understand that they shouldn't stay FOOLISH, IMBECILE, worse, IDIOT forever. That's why we strive for the best. We need to put extra effort in everything we do. We shouldn't stay inside the box. Oh, well. It will just lengthen this blog post if I continue fussing about that.

What happened to the exam? Ma'am provided us with 3 bonus questions too. What is her first name? What is her surname? What is the complete name of our subject? Basic questions. The number of items is 100 plus the 3 bonus questions. Overall, my score is 103 over 100. THANK YOU LORD! Breathed well after all those questions. We had another lecture, continued our lesson. 

FINALLY FREE! Out of the cage. We planned to go to the library, but we cancelled it. 

Classes ended for the day. We were told by our senior that there will also be a Christmas Party event to be held at the school. I asked him if we can just refuse going. One thing that made me upset is the fact that we are going to be forced to pay a certain amount of money. What is that for? We should be oriented regarding that. We were already formulating our plans, but we'll just learn about this THIS LATE? Come on, almost less than 2 weeks before the day and we have plenty of expenses to worry about too. Besides, we're already in college. 

When we were walking, I got a sermon from one of my friends. She called me "hard headed" -- I am used to that. I have a bad habit of taking my medicines late. Maybe I am still in the denial stage. I know it has been years since I last learned about my illness, but I can't help it. I want to be normal. I want to be called normal. I want to be seen normal. I want to be considered normal. I want to do a lot of things normal people can do. 

We headed to the main building to accompany our friend who has been reprimanded because of her uniform. I saw my name in the bulletin board too. So happy~ I was called to the NSTP office because we haven't our professor for 2 meetings already, and he won't be coming to us this Friday too. He's very very very kind. His approach is very calming. I can't wait to see him in the class. He gave me few assignments (as the class representative again). 

We went to the nearby grocery store after that. There I treated myself with a Big Mac, an up-sized coke, and an up-sized fries. I didn't plan to touch my savings. T___T Can't help it. I was starving that time. Took them out, met my friends. They were singing videoke. Some were planning basketball shooting game. We saw a guy played a percussion game. (Can't fully explain it. Think of a rock band game with the drums only present) I got wounds. My left hand's small and ring fingers got small wounds, it bled. wwww

[HOME. AT LAST. HOME. SWEET. HOME. AT LAST. HOME. WHATTTTT?]

Onlined. Followed my aunt's errands. Printed few pages. Checked for updates. I failed. Felt sleepy. Ended up sleeping. Woke up. Chatted. Ate dinner. NOW.

I've realized a bunch of things today. Maybe because I am also stressed. 

PS. I don't like talking with people who know very small amount of information. Don't say that education is not important. If it is NOT IMPORTANT then STOP STUDYING. You're just wasting money. You should be thankful that you are given a chance to have formal education. Just loiter around and be a beggar if you hate school that much. 

I like Mizutani Shizuku's outlook towards "education" and "schooling". Is there anything wrong with it?

Today is today

Now Playing: Hot Girls by Namie Amuro (Uncontrolled)

What's up with that "NowPlaying" line above? LOL I just dunno how to start this post. 

Oh well. 

Sudden change of sfx for me: Break It by Namie Amuro

This was an almost perfect day for me.

So, I woke up at 7 am. Yey! But my classes start at 2:00 pm.

Then I rolled around the bed for 20 minutes while tweeting through phone. 

Good child.

Good child.

Then had my breakfast for 30 minutes while watching Hiiro no Kakera Dai Ni Shou EP 02.

It took me forever before I finish watching Hiiro no Kakera because I was chatting while doing my assignment. After watching the episode, I had difficulty formulating sentences. My brain wasn't functioning well that time. It wasn't possessed that moment. Still I forced myself. Even though my original plan was to use 10 weird words... the instructions given to us was to only have 5 examples. Lucky for me that I can confirm it to my classmates. Typed my answers then watched Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun's latest episode (Episode 10). I don't want spoilers. I don't want spoilers. LOL

Then, did my routine before going to school.

Arrived at 1:10 pm. Met my classmates along the way. Asked them to come with me to the main building so I can submit my form. Goal reached! 

Returned to our building. It started to rain. We're still waiting for our professor so... it took almost 30 minutes of our life. 

Filipino subject starts. 

Sort of discussion to refresh our lessons when we were in our first or second year high school. (That was about 4-5 years ago for me). Then a set of readings to be analyzed were given to us. It was then checked. Got 93 out of 100. Yatta! Arigatou Kamisama! I was holding onto a rosary while answering the test and while checking the test.

Reports for the next few weeks were distributed. A plus for me since my friends are my groupmates. 

Then followed my prof to the faculty since she asked me an errand (class representative matters again). I saw my professor in English last semester. I kinda miss the way she taught us. 

Recess.

Ate rice with my friends. Became so hungry after all those readings. We just toyed around. Don't forget the horse-playing of my pals. wwwww

After.

I decided to discuss things about the soon-to-be-held Field Training Exercise to some of my classmates. Talked about the upcoming Christmas party too, but we weren't able to finish it because our professor in English arrived.

English time.

Discussed our assignment. (The one I polished this morning) The lucky word I've chosen to present is "poignant". Covered the contents of our syllabus. Asked us if we want to be paired or act individually in our report. I don't know what to do. I went solo. I DIDN'T INTEND TO THAT. Oh well, this became my fate. I got to choose the easiest topic (according to our prof), but I've forgotten all our topics in Technical Writing back then. Precious high school memories. *laughs insanely*

We're asked to draw something about a certain characteristic. I was given the term "unity". To my surprise, when each pair/individual were/was asked to expound the word given to them one of my classmate got the same term as mine. I didn't get to stand up in front of them. 

When everyone's preparing home. I confronted my professor and said "sorry". The reason why I apologized in this link. 

I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY. I FEEL MUCH RELIEVED BUT...

Night time. I coughed continuously. It really hurt. All I can do that time was to have another piece of lozenge. I am very blessed to have thoughtful and trustworthy friends. They walked with me. Some even sent me home. I am so grateful. 

Now I am a bit fine. I have to review for our accounting quiz tomorrow. It's already 10 pm. I want to eat dinner. Our classes will start at 7 am tomorrow. I wish I can still survive. BUT I CAN! DON'T SAY NO!

Closing song: Let's Go -- Namie Amuro (Uncontrolled)

December 3, 2012

Definitely, the day I posted this and the title don't match.

What happened?

I slept so early yesterday. 7 pm. Not my usual sleeping time. 

So...

I went to school at 7:00 am. I rushed. While waiting for my professor in programming to arrive, she called me. "I won't be able to attend your class because... (blah blah blah)". I wasn't able to hear her reason, but one thing's for sure, WE DON'T HAVE CLASS. 

As the class president, I had an attendance. Then bought mask and my throat reliever, lozenges. It was really an awful experience. My friend and I were looking for the lozenges, we even asked the counter. We didn't notice that the lozenges were just behind us! WHAT THE FUDGE! We weren't very good at exploring inside a very small pharmacy. lol, just lol.

Then, spent the remaining time with my friends at a grocery store. We stayed at the food court, had our meeting while eating. 

We returned to our building. Few of us were already wearing their PE uniform. Good thing I hesitated to wear it ahead that's why I was saved. The guards insisted that those who were not wearing PE uniforms were allowed to enter the school premises that time. *sigh of relief*

Of course I tried to ask our professors (Math and PE) to let them enter since they are really numerous. More than half of the class! Imagine that. But, my powers didn't work. I can't oppose them, so, go with the flow. They really have their point. I then submitted the form to my PE professor telling that I will start working in the registrar this day. Permission granted. 

So, Math time came. I didn't review a lot. (Thanks to my scumbag laziness last night). I did manage to answer the questions thrown to us by our prof but when the sudden quiz came. *doomed sfx* I was totally confused with 2 questions. How heavy 10 points or 5 points per question is! I only got 17/25 T___T Thanks to my friend who gave me consideration.

That certainly wasn't my time. I wasn't the highest. 

AT ALMOST 1 PM. HEADED TO THE MAIN BLDG. KNOCKED. 

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[Excerpt from my mobile memo]

(Part 1)

*clears throat*

Currently at the registrar's office. Idle mode here. I am still waiting for the tasks that will be given to me. I tried reading the sole book that's with me, a Trigonometry book.. What can I do with a book filled with computations if I can't even get pieces of papers out of my bag just to solve in front of these administrators? That is the problem I am facing at the moment. 

To ease my boredom, I tried searching for a wi-fi connection. Unfortunately, all I can do is to sigh. Stared at my phone for few seconds then a good idea entered my mind. You are now asking what it is? Obviously, I am ranting with the help of my phone's memo which I will later on post in my blog once I got home.

To be honest, I don't know if I can still be productive today. Half an hour elapsed. I am waiting for a personnel whom I don't have any idea who he is or how he looks like. In short, I am indeed waiting for an UNKNOWN man.

(door opens)

GREAT! The person I've been waiting for is this guy?

Date: Dec/03/12(Mon)   Time:13:35

(Part 2)

Continuation:

He's the one who always announces us with something regarding our previous subject in our previous semester.

I am still waiting for the tasks that will be assigned to me. Still patiently waiting. An hour and 12 minutes left before my duty here is over. Still not yet doing something worthy of my stay here. 

So can I just accept whatever grade I will be receiving given the fact

Note: This is really unfinished. 

Date: Dec/03/12(Mon) Time: 13:50

(Part 3)

Done with my work. I was given the task to encode a confidential matter. 

Scenes while I was typing:

1. They planned to fix my dean's lister so that I can be posted soon.

2. My former professor called me a "bright" student.

I finished my work fast. I really love typing that may be the reason why I was so confident with my work (just kidding, I rechecked it). The person who watches over my work even told me tat I should have at least didn't haste. lol

At least now I did something. My former professor in N

Note: This is again unfinished.  

Date: Dec/03/12 (Mon) Time: 14:40

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After my work, I was given the form for my dean's lister. I decided to return it tomorrow.

With my friends, headed to a convenient store since I was hungry. Bought rice meal, bread, and a drink.

Finally home. Played with my little cousin while letting her watch Namie Amuro and GRANRODEO live concerts. What a pretty considerate cousin (referring to myself).

I planned to have a Hiiro no Kakera Dai Ni Shou marathon to cope up with my missed episodes. Then I fell asleep. 

Shiawase without riyuu (Happiness without reason)

Not-so-good day, but still happy for unknown reason.

I slept early last night, around 10 pm. Woke up at 7:50 this morning which is a rare happening in a Sunday.

Decided to start rewriting my notes. Started off with Psychology. Watched Ep 09 of Sukitte Ii na yo and Ep 22 of Sword Art Online with my sister. Yes, those are really good episodes. I don't like to spoil those who haven't watched the episode yet, so I won't spill anything here.

Then, we had breakfast. Tinapa (Smoked fish), Ensalada (raw mangoes, tomatoes, and onions), and fried rice.

Resumed working. I loitered for an hour then I made my assignment in Psychology. I printed my classmate's task in Physical Education too. I ensured that my notebook is stunning that's why it took me 3 hours to finish it. I know, I know. Psychology is not one of my majors, it's just that, I can't help but enjoy adding details to the pages of my precious notebook. Then, I rewrote my notes in Accounting. I am planning to do my assignment in EngP2 after this blog post. Then will study in Math and Programming. Gawrsh, my weekend study habit has been ruined because of the Saturday schedule. Well, as long as I sincerely love our Psychology subject, I won't have any more complaints about it. 

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To insert my otaku life while studying, I listened to few drama CDs: 

1.) Diabolik Lovers Vol 05 - Sakamaki Reiji (CV Konishi Katsuyuki)

2.) Gekkan Otokomae Zukan Shiro Ban & Megane Ban (CV Hoshi Souchirou, Kishio Daisuke, Ishida Akira, and Miyano Mamoru)

Yes, then I listened to Miyano Mamoru songs, since I missed them. I can't possibly forget those days when I was so addicted to him, even self-proclaimed that I will be his wife.. but... HE GOT MARRIED! SADASFASDDFHSDAD! LOL

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Tomorrow, I will have my first duty in the registar too. Soooo excited. Well, I have to finish my works first before being all this jumpy about tomorrow's events. 

I am just so happy for no particular reason. LOL

Today's December 2, 2012, 22 days before my birthday! Yatta!

BTW, a storm entered our country's area of responsibility, I just wish our classes won't be suspended. 

SORE JAA! GANBARIMASU!

I must be considerate

I am so full now. Had clams for dinner. Had yogurt for dessert. 

What is this post all about? 
I don't want to tweet this, but I want to yell this out. 
I can't possibly yell out literally, that's why I am posting it here. 

I will never let negative thoughts sink in my work. I won't. I swear.
That's why tonight, (though I feel quite not good with what happened), I will just strive for excellence with whatever job I am about to do. I will keep myself busy so I can easily forget this.

I don't want to be like Hachiko and Shouji in Nana who kept on naming Sachiko. LOL
Well, I know it will never occur. I need to keep smiling and attract good energy. 

*inhales*
*exhales*

Thus, I need to at least finish my assignments before I finally welcome the start of another week.
Days sure fly fast. Whenever I ask for the time to pass faster, it moves slowly, but whenever I want to take a break from the fast pacing days, it doesn't listen. Truly great.

I AM A STUDENT.
NOTHING ELSE MATTERS.
I REPEAT.
I AM A STUDENT.

CURRENT FACIAL EXPRESSION: 

I need to concentrate, focus, study well.

Sorry for being so random today. I am not an "emo", I hate that kind of people. All I need is for some place to chill out. Since I am an Internet person, I automatically decided to go here. LOL

Sore jaa, never mind me. I am just feeling a bit... off tonight. 

1st Day of December

I can start my birthday countdown now (since it is easier to subtract when December starts. LOL)

THAT MEANS, 23 DAYS LEFT BEFORE MY 18TH BIRTHDAY. \(^o^)/

So, how was school?

Yes, today's Saturday and I have classes every Saturday. 
I don't mind having classes since Psychology is really interesting for me. 

We had this group work. It was a bit awkward but in the end I pulled it together. I can't help it. 
Then we had drills. The first one I got 11 right answers out of 12 (Me so great. LOL for bragging). The next one, I got a perfect score (Me so great again. LOLOLOL).

But this post is not intended for purely boasting...

I attended the university today even though I am still not feeling well.
I was so pale, having cough and colds...

*coughs now*

I had to go home to take my medicines (poor me for not bringing them with me)

Then Biology time. We had a semi-surprised quiz. 
I don't want to talk about this. I just... no, I won't spill it out. 
Imagine, that was my first time ranting in my notebook while the professor is lecturing. That wasn't my style as a student. T___T


Dismissal time. Bonding with my friends. Ate my number 1 favorite snack! --- Cheeseburger, and spaghetti. I look like a child every time I eat those. Besides being a messy eater, those are my comfort food. 

We encountered a hard-core Tekken gamer kid who kept on beating us. The child spent his entire childhood playing Tekken. LOL We had no chance in winning against him. But, still, he's a nice child. He didn't talk sh*t about winning multiple times. 


The adventure still has a long way to go. 

"Should I sleep now?" 

The statement above is the question that keeps on ringing in my head. 

I will just study. I dunno. I dunno. I simply do not know. If I glued myself in front of the laptop, this day will not be productive again. I need to stretch out and get my pen and notebooks. I am a good student, right? wwww

Sebastian Fever!!

Yes, I am really Sebastian Michaelis' master. I just want this to be kept but now I have to reveal it. LOL

Anyway, I just realized something..

While searching for various images of Sebastian, I saw cosplayers of Sebastian. There was a moment where I met BL doodles of SebastianXCiel or SebastianXGrell or SebastianXClaude then my mother suddenly appeared. I am confident I don't have any relationship to those kind of fanservice. No problemo~

So, what is this "I realized" thingy?

I haven't seen any perfectly perfect cosplayer of Sebastian Michaelis because, I, myself, has built a really high standard in imitating his character. I can't define it well, but, as fellow Sebastian-lover, I am sure that there will be many who'll agree to me. 

And, I want to have 3rd season of this... if possible with my character. LOL Every one knows that there'll be no more sequel to this... I mustn't expect for something now.

DANG, MY COLDS MAKE ME SLEEPY. Will end this post before it reaches 4000 words. LOL

Good bye~!